They say, “If you keep delaying a decision, it could be made for you.” 

Should I choose now? Or if I don’t…. would I get stuck with an outcome I wouldn’t want? 

Im scared :(

That feeling when all you want is to be alone. To cry. And cry. Then cry a little more. When you just want to leave it all behind and live life with no worries even for just five minutes… When you just want to break down or maybe just eat a whole gallon of ice cream all by yourself because that’s what will make you feel better… When you just want to watch movies all night so your life will seem like one… When all you need is someone to talk to.. someone to cuddle with.. someone to keep you company and listen to all your crazy shits. 

My life is so messed up.

Some day soon we’ll be together

Where a moment lasts forever

And our love shines brighter than the stars

My brother and I are currently having brunch yesterday when someone knocked on the door. It was my brother’s friend, Kuya Mike. A very good friend of us, actually. He was shaking and his clothes are wet so we immediately told him to come in. But he said that he’s not alone and he brought his family with him but his wife and 3 children just stayed outside the gate because they feel so embarrassed. It was raining hard so we wasted no time. My brother took care of the Kuya Mike and Ate Valeen and I assisted the kids. All of their relatives lives in Nueva Ecija so they have no one else to turn to. Their house is badly affected by the flood which reached the chest level. Luckily they have a second floor so they’ve put all their appliances and furnitures up there. Then we let them sip on some hot milk, let them eat, take a shower, and take a rest in the other room. I saw how uncomfortable Ate Valeen was during their 24-hour stay in our house because I think she is the shyest type of person I have ever met so an idea came up to me. I called one of my brother’s closest friend who has a 6-door apartment and asked her if there is still a vacant space. Luckily, there was! I told Kuya Mike and Ate Valeen about it but they said the problem is that they have no enough money for the down payment and advance deposit. My brother and I told them there is no problem with that because we still have some extra cash plus the owner is also a good friend so no biggie. They were too hesitant about it but we insisted. We then brought them to the place and helped to organize some of their stuffs that they’ve managed to bring. We received like billions of “thank you” from them especially from Ate Valeen. And the kids…. they gave us some hand-made bracelets as “thank-you-gift” and that is just so heartwarming. 

This is the first time in our lives that someone asked a helping hand from us during stormy seasons like this. So it is also my first time to know how great it feels knowing that you made some other people’s lives a little bit easier.